Team Shark


Today I have become a statistic. Due to the crappy economy I am no longer employed. sigh....

Good thoughts and energy are appreciated.
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Homophobia to tolerance- a lifelong journey

I haven't been to the land of LJ for a very long time.... but I thought I would cross post something that I put up on my FB page yesterday as part of National Coming Out Day

I have been working on this off and on for the last couple of weeks.  Seeings how this is is National Coming Out Day, and in light of the recent suicides of teens who were either gay or suspected of being gay, and the stupid remarks made by NY gubernatorial candidate Carl Paladino, I give you my story.  Just be warned- this is a long read.

 This is my story.  It is true. It documents how I went from being a homophobe to who I am today.  Some of you may have heard it, but many of you have not. That is all well and good as here it is now- a tale I have been meaning to type for a very long time.


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In the last few years I have been blessed to know those of every sexual orientation and am secure in who I am sexually.  As my wife said, I have grown up.  Now if only the rest of the world could get over their hang-ups about who people are.

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Repo vs Repo

In March there is the wonderful looking movie coming out called Repo Men.  The premise is very simple- it is the future and the giant company called The Union transplants organs into people who need the, at a hefty price.  If you cannot keep up with the payments the company sends the Repo Men to take back what belongs to the company. Starring Jude Law Forrest Whitaker and Liev Schrieber.

Somehow this sounds very familiar....

Ah yes, that is why.... Because there is a musical rock opera called Repo! The Genetic Opera.  Same basic premise except that the thing is obviously an opera.  And a damned good one at that with the likes of Sarah Brightman, Anthony Head, Alexa Vega, and yes, even Paris Hilton.  (Don't let her appearance in this film fool you, despite my dislike of this particular star she turned in a good performance and did not hamper the film in any way- in fact I didn't even realize who her character was at first.)  This film has been compared to Rocky Horror Picture Show and with good reason!

Repo! came first and has been around for over a decade starting as a stage production before finally being realized as a movie project in 2008 so the concept of organ repossession belongs to the creators of that project.  However Repo Men takes a slightly different tack on the subject and looks as though it is running as a straight actioner but with a decent storyline.  It focuses on the Repo Men and what happens when one of them becomes the target of The Union.

So here are the two trailers just for your pleasure.

Repo!  is definitely a good movie and worth the watch.  I think Repo Men will be the same.
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Up for grabs

For any who want it- a six foot tall baker's rack.  Dark green and black with grape leaf and grape bunch accents.  Please call me at fourtwofivethreefourfouroneseveneightnine if you are interested and can pick it up within the next week.

This will go to either Goodwill or Habitat for Humanity if no one wants it.

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I am worth $3615

Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[ ] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other - $75

Total: $100

Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue - $150
[x] Hazel - $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $200

[ ] Over 7′ - $200
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $175
[x] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $150
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $75
[ ] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $85
[ ] Under 5′4 - $0 

Total so far: $350

[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[x] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[ ] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $475

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[x] First born - $320
[x] Only Child - $250
[ ] Second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[x] Last Born - $100
[ ] Third born - $550
[ ] Fourth born - $300
[ ] Fifth born - $400
[ ] Sixth born -$215

Total so far: $1145

[ ] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] Only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: $1365

[ ] perfect vision - $400
[ ] need or have glasses/contacts but don’t wear them - $200
[ ] No correction - $100
[x] Glasses - $50
[ ] Contacts - $25
[ ] Surgical correction - $100

Total so far: $1415

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[x] 7 to 10 - $50
[ ] Under 7- $450

Total so far: $1465

Favorite Colors (multiple):
[x] Green - $750
[ ] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[ ] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $500

Total: $2615

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes - $0
[x] Nope - add $1000
[ ] some - $750

Total $3615

Note- Lest one think I am cheating with the first born/Only child I justify it this way- I am the only offspring of my bio-parents and the oldest child of either of them there for I am technically an only child.  (Even if I was raised by my father and he had two more children with my step-mom.)

Edit- added $100 for last born as well.  Thanks to philkensebben .

SMF stuff

sigh... So it seems that I most likely will not be attending the 25th Anniversay of SMF this year.  Unfortunately Brenda's work has decided they to cancel her already approved vacation plans because they are rolling out new software.  sigh....

In the meantime I have a huge art project I am working on for the auction.  I have a large number of pictures that I am working into one huge presentation- with no stopping on the number of new art pieces I am creating for the larger project. 

Which brings me to this question- If you were a fire-spinner/eater at last year's Cinco de Beltaine party do you object to your image being used as part of this art project? Please feel free to email me at johdarqwed at hot mail dot com or respond here.  And if you know of anyone that is not on LJ that might benefit from this please pass this info on to them.


This weekend has been an emotional rollercoaster.

Some crap that I learned at the Tab and some of the emotional fallout of that from the people that it effected the most followed by Brenda getting sick (apparently some nasty stomach virus) lowered my defenses.

But walking in to work this morning was the icing on the cake.  We learned that a former co-worker who had left the company in November because he had melanoma is on his deathbed.  His wife said that he was peaceful but had hours to live- and that was at 0930 today.  We are waiting now to hear word of his passing.

Mikey, you were a wonderfully calm person who was a joy to work with- even if you were a dirty old man.  You will be missed.  May your crossing be pleasant and may HeySeuss (if he exists) welcome you in his arms.  And most of all- rest easy, you deserve it.

(The HeySeuss comment was one Mikey made many times as he was a mostly Agnostic person, I just feel it so important to include it here because it would be so like him to say that now.)
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